cosmicna | august media intake

goodbye salt air and the rust on your door. hello dreadful school days.

august was nothing much. watched a couple movies, caught a cold right before school started, and tried to transfer out of gdocs (this one isn’t looking too good)!

monthly reminder to not take my ratings seriously! i can’t rate for shit…

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📺 movies/series
🎧 songs
📚 reading
💻 writing

📺 movies/series

i have nothing to say… i love myself some spiderman.

spider-man ♡♡♡
spider-man 2 ♡♡♡
spider-man 3 ♡♡♡
the amazing spider-man ♡♡♡
the amazing spider-man 2 ♡♡♡
⟲ spider-man: into the spider-verse ♡♡♡♡♡
⟲ dead poets society ♡♡♡♡♡
the summer i turned pretty season 2 ♡♡♡♡
heartstopper season 2 ♡♡♡♡♡

rewatched dps so time could run faster and i was only left with tissues and soaked cheeks, todd’s “neil” echoing in my head, and the sound of feet stepping up on tables and then the call “o captain, my captain.” the dead poets society will always, always find themselves back into my heart.

tsitp was insane actually. i always and forever will be team conrad. fuck belly and her indecisive ass, seriously. while her and her jerebear are at camp, conrad’s in cousins, unpacking their things, painting the walls, seeing memories of his mom who died a month ago. and all with a heavy heart because he still loves belly, despite him telling her he didn’t want her anymore. he has always wanted her. i swear, he deserves so much more. anyways! i am also team staylor <33 they’re so cute.

i love heartstopper so much. and god do i love darcy. i was so worried for her… she’s really my favorite character :( when tara said she loved her and after, darcy kept on avoiding it… and the night before the dance really had me sobbing like, her mom wasn’t accepting? that’s such a horrible house to live in. i’m glad they finally talked after, i can’t live if my favorite lesbians didn’t sort things out. charlie and nick are as cute as ever too and i’m so proud of nick for coming out<3 tao also got the hair upgrade, as he should, and he also got his girl!! and of course! isaac getting his own heartstopper moment and realizing he’s ace! we love the ace representation!!! i love imogen so much too. when she confronted ben in front of everyone plus the way she was looking at sahar!!

spidey

the spiderman obsession is showing, isn’t it? i had to watch tobey’s and andrew’s movies to get the full spidey experience. watching them also let me see similarities within the spiderman universe that i never realized.

and! i never knew tobey’s mj was a cheater! she kissed spiderman when she was dating harry. she kissed harry when she was dating peter. peter cheated too. kissing gwen when you know mj is watching… and gwen kissing him when her boyfriend was watching too… they’re all messed up really lmao.

moving away from that, the train scene of tobey’s left me in tears. i was at the mall when i watched that scene and i cried like. spidey is serious for me.

andrew's spiderman too… your girlfriend’s dad is dying and he asks you to keep her out of it so you try. you try and you try and she ends up fucking dead. he disappears for months after that it’s. painful. then there’s that kid wearing a spiderman costume too. just shows how much the city needed him and how spiderman really gave them hope!

itsv left me in tears as it did before. uncle aaron seeing it’s miles behind the mask will never not make me sad. that scene before that in the basement too… when he turned invisible to get out… man, my heart broke again for miles there. i really want them to release the third movie… i don’t know how much longer i can wait.

i hate how in every single spiderman movie, he always ends up getting hurt. and yet he’s always expected to get back up. i love spiderman a whole lot, i think that’s obvious enough, and i know that there’s some universe out there where all the spiderman movies are just him being happy and saving people. i just wish i was in that universe. i sound dramatic as fuck but who cares! i love the little guy.

🎧 songs

i love every and all songs hence five hearts for all…

better things - aespa ♡♡♡♡♡
getting even with steven - milo ♡♡♡♡♡
cake - itzy ♡♡♡♡♡
925 - ardhito pramono ♡♡♡♡♡
light – wave to earth ♡♡♡♡♡
bloom – the paper kites ♡♡♡♡♡
horizon – jaehyun ♡♡♡♡♡
ur so pretty - wasia project ♡♡♡♡♡
bad idea right? - olivia rodrigo ♡♡♡♡♡
last kiss - pearl jam ♡♡♡♡♡
california and me - laufey ♡♡♡♡♡
memories - riize ♡♡♡♡♡
star - colde ♡♡♡♡♡
golden age (album) - nct 2023 ♡♡♡♡♡

i don’t support nct nation!! i’m not gonna buy the albums, i didn’t buy the beyond live, i’m not gonna give them money for this overworking! but god is this album good. pado is my baby, she haechan-ed so hard! i just wholly love pado unit! 99z all in one song mended that little crack in my heart i never knew i had in the first place! i adore kangaroo unit too—also known as taeil, kun, and kids. kangaroo’s such a cute song and you just can’t disagree.

aespa's better things!!! stuck in my head cause of the tiktoks, really. the styling my girls got for this too?! out of this world!! aespacore truly is back and booming! they all sound so good in the song too omg i can always count on my girls for good music.

the series i watched this month led me to music! i found ur so pretty because of heartstopper and maybe i'll keep up with wasia project, who knows. then there’s last kiss… my connie baby… need the world to stop making fun of him like he was sad!! his mom died!! and he sang for her!! yes i skipped that part of the funeral because i was getting embarrassed but at least i'm not laughing at him! then of course… getting even with steven. i hate milo but this song, damn. it hits.

📚 reading

this is actually my first book of the year. i love reading and all, but i’m lazy.

this is how you lose the time war ♡♡♡♡♡

this book has rewired my brain!!! i can’t count the number of times i cried over red and blue while i read the book not to mention when i finished… like i was just scrolling on tiktok and i saw a couple out on a date and i thought… red and blue never went on a date… they only had letters… and they never would’ve met if blue really stopped reading red’s last letter. these two have broken me. this also may be one of the few books i can actually explain. usually, the whole plot would vanish from my head but this one… i can tell you all about commandant and garden, how they’re going through strands together, the shadow, how they find their messages, how they lost the war—but i wouldn’t call it a loss. there are some things i don’t fully get like braiding the strands, but for the most of it, i get it. and it’s ironic, cause this book is always said to be confusing. but the main point is how it’s so… poetic. it’s so beautiful, the words they share to each other.

i hope the authors know just how much they pierced my heart with this. i hope red and blue are sharing tea.

💻 writing

i posted a total of three fics for the month of august! two of them you can see on my profile but the other one’s anon! i wrote for a rarepair and decided to post it secretly~ but i will say i got shocked when i saw the ao3 user of someone who has liked a couple of my fics before! delighted to know they left a kudos on something of mine without my name written on it <3 i’ll try to get more into daily writing this school year! i need to practice doing so… not much progress on a lot, spent a couple time trying to transfer out of gdocs (due to the ai news again lol i’m sick of this) and into obsidian but it isn’t working out for me… obsidian is cool and all but i can’t sync my docs so :/ feeling discouraged. plus, it’s so much easier for me on gdocs that i’m just using it lmao. it kinda hurts knowing i’m potentially putting my writing at risk for them to feed to ai but it can’t be helped unless someone makes a free anti-ai writing program like gdocs.

phew, hello september! dreamwidth, i’ll see you again later on~