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june

delete my existence and ponder on what-ifs

(and yet i believe that your absence is more than just the feeling of vacancy, as once said by mark lee)
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this is kinda late but here we go.

july wasn’t anything inherently amazing. i wouldn’t say i did a whole lot… i mostly dreaded the nearing of school, i think, but i was counting down the days to mark’s bday :D

once again, note i am shit at rating! don’t take anything too seriously because i can’t exactly decide on how good or bad something is…

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not an eventful month. the days just kinda sped fast.

  • no good nick ♡♡♡♡
  • chilling adventures of sabrina ♡?
  • barbie ♡♡♡♡♡
no good nick
started watching cause of lauren donzis (i have a crush on her) and i finished it in less than forty-eight hours! i already kinda knew why nick was there because of tiktok clips (another reason why i watched) but i still loved it!

there were several times i got annoyed with the thompsons—molly especially when nick kept trying to help her realize what she did wrong. but there were times i felt bad for them—molly, again, mostly, because she lost all her friends (i don’t know if i truly felt bad or i’m biased because of her actor). but i think i felt bad for nick the most. having to steal because her dad needed money, stealing also for her legal guardians who were the ones who taught her how to scam people and just being under all that pressure at fourteen years old.

she really did love the thompsons, and the thompsons loved her.

when nick revealed her plans, ed was the most hurt because he really showed his love for her. i understand how he felt, though that doesn’t mean i understand him breaking the rules for nick’s dad.

i’m glad liz realized she did franzelli’s wrong. and i’m glad jeremy took an understanding to nick’s side, plus, i’m proud of him for coming out.

molly and nick’s friendship was true, it was sad whenever molly thought it was all fake, and it was sad when the thompsons thought she didn’t really love them. this show was… wholesome, i guess. i’m really happy nick put a right and reversed her wrongs and my heart warmed when the thompsons went out to find her at the end.
chilling adventures of sabrina
i really don’t know how to rate this one. um. first of all, i loved harvey and sabrina. loved. meaning i don’t love them now cause, obviously, he’s with roz. i mention this because i loved nick and sabrina together so much more than them. loved, again, yes. because now? i hate nick. like! how could you forgive him for cheating, sabrina???!! like i get how he’s traumatized by the dark lord and all, but fuck that! he still cheated, and i’m not sorry i don’t want to forgive him. that’s all i really wanted to say. but, weird thing actually, i dreamt about nick. it was crazy... like what!? why am i dreaming of this dickhead… i hate you omfg leave me alone… fuck you nick, you little devil…

if you want me to talk about the ending, all i have to say is that it was pretty underwhelming. at least for me. fuck you, nick, once again.



🎧 songs

i love every and all songs hence five hearts for all…

  • istj (album) - nct dream ♡♡♡♡♡
  • perfect blues - hannah bahng ♡♡♡♡♡
  • shhh - kiss of life ♡♡♡♡♡
  • columbo – bruno major ♡♡♡♡♡
  • the way things go – beabadoobee ♡♡♡♡♡
  • anatomy – kenzie ♡♡♡♡♡
  • untitled moon song - margaux beylier ♡♡♡♡♡
  • i’m on it - ichillin’ ♡♡♡♡♡
  • party o’clock - nmixx ♡♡♡♡♡

istj album of the year i’m saying it here. the mv was crazy and the choreo oh my god… that bridge and jeno’s background vocals??? heavenly. i’m serious. the studio choom came out so good too. (and i didn’t want to bring it over here but it feels like i need to so i’ll just say it. i hated how haechan was in the hospital especially since it isn’t the first time this year. i hate how they’re overworked. i need them to rest so please, no more releases?) i love the dreamies so much it’s crazy… and doyoung with the dreamies again as he always is :( i love my neos.

chenle doing the party o’clock challenge with kyujin had me laughing so much and his face !!! cried actually he must’ve been so embarrassed. poor baby. but on party o’clock! i do like this song, it sounds so nice! the mingling mingling part has been replaying in my head for days. i’m not an nswer or even a casual listener of nmixx but this song will be on repeat! i just think it’s that good. i actually just heard this song while waiting for the dreamies on music shows and another song i found because of those shows is i’m on it by ichillin’! i feel like i heard the song before somewhere else but i really don’t recall where. i’m addicted to the chorus where they mention their group name… it’s just really catchy and their performances were cute.

the untitled moon song by margaux beylier has me so hooked… the lyrics are just so fucking good and margaux is worth listening to! i love her other song called northern italy and it’s part of a playlist i listen to when writing. margaux’s voice is really pretty and this song didn’t disappoint at all !!! listen to the lyrics and understand them, i’m sure you won’t regret it.


💻 writing

this month, i finished writing something i thought of last year and i’m proud of it even if it’s short! i definitely didn’t write too much but i stressed over this spontaneous trip my family booked so i couldn’t do a whole lot T_T but! i wrote a little tiny bit on the road. originally, i actually was supposed to post the fic i finished for mark day but i didn’t have the time to proofread it as i was not at home… and i did a couple things on my own for mark day… heh….

unfortunate news, school will be starting soon and i won’t be looking forward to that so i will try to spend every waking moment writing. that might turn into a lie but i’m trying to motivate myself, okay!!!!

not much for this month, huh? i doubt there’ll be more for august but who knows really.

cosmicna, out!