MAY MEDIA INTAKE

[cosmicna]

school is over and i live in vacation mode! and i am still getting the hang of using markdown as well as the occasional html. don't judge.

there are only a few things i have let myself indulge in in the month of may. when i tell you school was hectic, i mean it. but onto the fun stuff!

warning: i am horrible at rating.

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movies/series

i will never allow school to take over my love for cinema. even at stressful times, shows or movies will always be an option of mine to use as background music!

• eternal sunshine of the spotless mind ♡♡♡♡♡
• xo, kitty ♡♡♡♡
• the little mermaid (2023) ♡♡♡♡
• mona lisa smile ♡♡♡♡
• zombies 2 ♡♡
• zombies 3 ♡♡♡

i might be posting a little xo, kitty mind jumble but i’m not so sure. for the others, the little mermaid was so, magical? i don’t know the right word. the way ariel told eric her name? i love. i also loved eric’s little wild uncharted water song but i didn’t love it too much—kind of got bored of it? like he kept saying wild uncharted waters.. idk just not the best.

mona lisa smile. i didn’t watch it properly—i will be honest. i was kind of bored and wanted something to keep my eyes busy. the men were mostly shit, i will say that. betty was shitty for the most part too, but the end? that got me crying. the students following ms. watson on their bikes… and betty crying too… i really need to rewatch dead poets society.

the zombies movies... i watched for fun. got second-hand embarrassment from addison going to school wearing werewolf clothes and thinking she’s a werewolf when she actually isn’t… i enjoyed the third movie more than the second. them singing someday when addison was leaving… made me kinda sad not gonna lie… my heart might’ve ached every time addison and zed left each other. and i can’t believe utopia was actually just earth. like damn. you could’ve saved me the heartbreak and just stayed in seabrook.

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

okay this one was a rewatch this month, of course i did, it’s a gem! i had school work to accomplish and i decided, hey! esotsm is a great movie to have as background noise! and i’m glad it was. several feelings swarmed over me again and just, i love it.

watching it knowing the whole story had me in awe still. for some scenes, i had the screenplay pulled up, actually. i love reading scripts and it is possibly due to my yearning to screen write in the future, it helps that recent school requirements (the romeo and juliet play, and another small scratch animation) required scripts and i was delighted to write them as if they were my screenplays.

i’ve no idea how i branched off from the topic so much but i really do recommend eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! it shows you love. love in its impulsiveness and in its regret. love in the happy moments that fade when thought of as something less. love in how it pulls you together no matter what. and how minds and memories can be erased but your heart stays. the feelings don’t change.

joel and clem still found each other after all the wiping. mary still fell for dr. mierzwiak after she erased her memories of him.

it’s real. that is what love really is (though it may be wrong to love sometimes).

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songs

i don’t think i was exactly big on new releases this month but there are definitely a few i tuned into.

• from the start - laufey ♡♡♡♡♡
• golden hour - mark ♡♡♡♡♡
• spicy (album) - aespa ♡♡♡♡♡
• unforgiven (album) – lesserafim ♡♡♡♡♡
• hits different – taylor swift ♡♡♡♡♡
• snow on the beach – taylor swift ft. more lana del rey ♡♡♡♡♡

from the start

this new song had my heart from the start and i mean it. i’ve always loved laufey (once again, shoutout to my sister for telling me about her—can’t believe she has another cameo in my journal entries) and it was only a couple months ago that i found she uses tiktok and has an official account, instant follow! through her tiktok, i definitely knew more of her: her twin sister and her shenanigans as well as little bits of new, unreleased music. then one day she posts a video. a new song.

when i talk to you
oh, cupid walks right through
and shoots an arrow through my heart
and i sound like a loon
but don’t you feel it too?
confess, i loved you from the start

i’m pretty sure those few lyrics caught the hearts of more than one. and when the full song got released? god, do i love it. her voice? i love hearing her sing so much.

oh, the burning pain
listening to you harp on 'bout some new soulmate
"she's so perfect"
blah, blah, blah

hearing her sing this live was magical. the whole crowd—me included—singing blah blah blah was one of the most memorable parts of that night. i hope i get to see her again sometime soon! (i am aware i went off the topic of from the start for a bit but i just needed to say that i saw her live!)

golden hour

golden hour has been on repeat ever since it was released! mark lee has created a masterpiece. a musical masterpiece, a lyrical masterpiece, a visual masterpiece, and such an artistic one too! his voice to his written lyrics to the music video (thank you eehosoo!) it’s everything.

i know this song has been released for almost two months but it never falls off my tongue or out of my head. there is so much i have to say about golden hour—lyrics i’ve analyzed and scenes from the mv that i have theories about—but it would be way too long and i doubt anyone will be interested.

i’m in your brain like ooh la la la

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writing

pinky promise i will work on things properly. school is finally over (i’m still stressing about my exam scores and my report card but those things are done so i am essentially free) and so i have time to truly write! when i was watching mona lisa smile, actually, i planned a little bit for this thing i joined. i am very excited. i don’t have an estimated word count for this fic but it will be longer than the average counts of mine. i still get shocked with emails i receive from ao3 of kudos or the occasional comments. i hope readers don’t think i’m like… dead in the community. i am still very much alive and active in the writing community! i just don’t post what i write because they are pretty ass and not finished. i do plan a lot for this summer and i hope i don’t slack on them. there is really so much to do in life and so little time and motivation. i promise to write forever ♡


i guess that is it for this month! happy gemini season and happy pride month! i wish everyone a good summer ♡ i will be back on ao3—that is for sure—and here on dreamwidth—that is a promise.