cosmicna | navigating through dreamwidth and through life

i couldn’t think of a better title, my apologies, but it is the truth! half of it but a slight truth nonetheless. i really am just figuring out dreamwidth, but with life, maybe not quite the same.

on navigating through dreamwidth: as expressed in my previous post, i struggled so much. i tried a total of like two themes in the maybe four hours of me trying to design this journal but getting stuck and feeling content with just, this. i struggled with customizing and html and all those things a compsci student would probably know but i am afraid i am not one. but i might have to get the hang of it sooner or later (i will dread those times, most likely).

when i tell you dreamwidth has got me so interested but so awfully feeling vertigo, i mean it (that is a full truth, no lies between any space or lack of it).

there is so much to dreamwidth i have yet to come across but hey, everything is all a learning process. whether i give up and pick myself up halfway, or give up entirely, this online entry will stay on the internet forever and it is my sign to the world that i was here and i tried.

i searched up countless of things and one look in my safari/chrome/firefox (yes, i used all three browsers) will make your head spin too. however, i am glad i pushed through with this.

on navigating through life: there really is some truth in this statement! although within the confines of dreamwidth, i will associate what i want to post on here with “life.” i am most likely only going to use this for any movies i watched—series and books if i’m feeling ambitious.

i have already been thinking of making a few reviews of favorite movies which may be under some sort of amalgamation i may make of movies i found through mark (of course mark, i’m a markf and as a markf i am programmed to talk about him all the time)

other than that? i might want to talk about some of my fics here (this one is heavily uncertain, do know)

for now, let me… talk a bit about writing here.

it has been some time since i last posted a fic, i am aware, and for that i apologize to the mahae community for not doing my part too often… i have two fics to proofread but the more i read them, the more lazy i get to posting them—but i will fix this problem, i promise!

but it isn’t just proofreading that is my problem. writing, itself, has not much time in my life these days. it has been months since i had proper time to myself without thinking of anything else other than the fictional worlds i create. i wrote about one thousand words recently—which i am proud of—but it is for a fic that won’t come for a very long time.

i also have another fic i am gradually, gradually working on but that, too, won’t come for a very long time—longer than the previous very long time.

i think an ongoing problem of mine is the need to prolong fics which is entirely the fault of my head. i might post the two short fics i have finished sooner or later, and i might get fully into writing soon (soon means maybe in the summer).

school really has me messed up this year. i live off academic validation, if that wasn’t evident in “what would be left of me (if it weren't for you),” and i think it really is just hitting harder this school year; hence why writing is slow.

i doubt anyone really is reading this so i guess this all is more for myself rather than for anyone else.

my head always reminds me i write for myself and i continue to believe it. i think i just have this urge to finish things which may or may not be due to past experiences of my own.

let me stop there. i have yet to eat something today and i still have a few things to accomplish.

good afternoon, dreamwidth, and good day.